how longs it been four months? since i last posted anyways...
i still call her phone. it's comforting to hear her voice even if it is just a standard "hello! ava here, i'm not in right now, but you can leave me a message with your-"
i duno what ill do when her parents finally deactivate her phone. maybe they also call her number. ill still have that audio file of our conversation at least.
i miss ava. luca's no replacement, tom and i may not fight anymore but fuck him fuck him anyways, i dun care if hes not at fault he could have helped stop this. HE COULDA STARTED HELPING FASTER.
maybe ava is the lucky one though. lucky bitch escaped worse- no what am i saying the big sleep or the big guy which is worse anyways?
maybe i should just follow her to neverland.
keep fighting you say keep fighting you says. but why? i have no reason to keep fighting anymore, she's gone!
ReplyDeletei'm not giving into him though. that's the last thing on my mind. if i go i go on my own terms fuck him and fuck anyone who says otherwise.