grieve

how longs it been four months? since i last posted anyways...
i still call her phone. it's comforting to hear her voice even if it is just a standard "hello! ava here, i'm not in right now, but you can leave me a message with your-"

i duno what ill do when her parents finally deactivate her phone. maybe they also call her number. ill still have that audio file of our conversation at least.

i miss ava. luca's no replacement, tom and i may not fight anymore but fuck him fuck him anyways, i dun care if hes not at fault he could have helped stop this. HE COULDA STARTED HELPING FASTER.

maybe ava is the lucky one though. lucky bitch escaped worse- no what am i saying the big sleep or the big guy which is worse anyways?

maybe i should just follow her to neverland.

Hey

Alright, back to myself guys. Sorry for so much drama on my blog, man I hate it. I made this blog to be a personal blog and I'll be fucking DAMNED if I don't at least update it with personal stuff.

So anyways, winter break was alright. I stayed with various friends over it.  Oh yeah, my favorite Christmas gift I got was:














Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis, glow stars.
(Believe me, taking this picture was actually easier than I thought. I set my camera to night sky setting and then let it expose for 60 seconds)

So yeah, how was your winter breaks, guys?